!!!..It'S m0i LyFe..!!!

2008-10-10T20:29:00.002+08:00

Im now just waiting for ur decision. I want to noe but at the same tyme, im scared to hear it...
I dont noe how i feel right now but for sure im *AFRAID*...
What will it be..?? I feel lyke crying but im trying not to. Coz, i promised hym not to cry...

Sometimes, i just hate waiting... But wad can i sae, im alwaes b dis wae..
Even ppl sae im not patient, but wad i noe....
Im too patient in the past n now its tyme for me to go ahead in doin thngs...

2008-10-04T00:49:00.005+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

2008-09-28T17:57:00.001+08:00

s0rie 4 being 2 em0tional diz daes. Its all bc0z of ma dreams. Its been telling me l0tz of thngs. Last time, i use to tel u dat i dream dat u sc0ld me but u t0ld me dat u will neva eva sc0ld me n u w0nt. Den, i dream ab0ut u leaving me. N im scared. Den, u t0ld me again dat u wil neva leave me.
N0w, i dream dat u r cheating me n u haf a new girl in ur life. Is it true?
I dnt knw y im lyke diz.
I trust hw im feeling. It alwaes been true.
I want 2 leave u c0mpletely but i cant du it.
I lurv n miss u s0o much. I w0nt change dat feeling. N i jus cant.
U t0ld me b4, dnt misses u n thnk b0ut u t0o much c0z i might get sick. N im realie2 sick. But u jus dnt trust me.

I just want 2 b with u e hard tyme n e gd tyme. I wil alwaes b there 4 ew. Sori! Bc0z of me, u neva cntct ur girls fren. Im s0rie.

Rite nw, i have been waiting 4 ur msges since ystrdae. Pls du reply aites.

Im s0rie haslan!

2008-09-28T17:57:00.000+08:00

2008-09-28T12:29:00.000+08:00

life aint great actualie...
I just nid a fren, n0t a l0ver...
Am i hys fren or jus a STRANGER?
Lyfe is full of pain. Hearts kip bleeding n br0ken evry n0w n den.
Try 2 b hapie but theres n0 wae out.
Get ign0red n jus b al0ne.
No friends but jus family.
No m0re trust 4 any0ne n datz f0r sure.
Life aint e same after i break ppls heart.
Im full of shit n neva stop making mistake.
I hate u but i du lurv u?
Wil dis l0ve get awae...?

2008-09-27T02:09:00.002+08:00

todae i juz stay at h0me all the way. Boring! 2dae, i jahit langsir... Hm. Baru2 blaja. Haha!
My dad n 2 sis pi pancing. Left me n mumi at h0me...
Hm. Kemas2 rumah skit... Den, all e wae baring aje. Tired c0ughin. Got headache, n fever.... Hm. High fever sehk. =(
Haix...

2008-09-26T04:05:00.003+08:00

HELLO LADIES N GENTLEMAN...!!!
Haha! Ape aku m3pek nie ehk.
I oso dnt n0e lah gerl... Tadi, aku sakit rabak n reali cn make me go crazi3...
I go d0c at night gitu. I got a secret illness actuali but t0ld my parents dat it jus a n0rmal fever. Only he knws but wtf sehk. I told hym ma sickness, but he said, 'st0p telling me dat u r sick!'
Haiy0o. Mcm tk berhati perut btul ehk. Nw, yeah kita kwn. Kalau kwn baek dia, mcm wan n sape2 ah sakit... Wil he b there 4 dem? Dia sakit, aku jugak yg tgk dia. Pmpn nie jugak yg temankn dia. Aku tk pasal c0z aku syg dia tapi, mcm tk fair kan. Kalau aku blg d0c ape aku alami, cfm dia suruh pi h0spital n blah blah blah... Aku tknk d0k dlm h0spital. Takpe... Kalau dia btl2 tk caye, satu hari nnti kalau aku dh terlantar kat atas katil, baru dia phm agaknya...

After dat, th0ught nk pi gunting rambut. Dia nye pasal ah bagi atau tak. At last, aku tk pi c0z aku pi geylang. N i b0ught sumting very nice... It c0st 18 bucks or 25 bucks. Daddy yg belikan. Haha. Datz e pic UPSTAIRS... Nice right...

Th0ught nk gak belikan si dia.
Sbgai tanda persahabatan. Susah ah dia nie. Aku nk jumpe sbgai kwn pun susah. I thnk, kalau aku maen b0la, kfm dia lepak dgn aku je.
Part dulu tyme masih c0uple2. Bola leh t0lak tepi tapi dok dia bagi c0ment aku tk bag dia maen b0la lak. Nie lah lelaki. Pantang nmpk pmpn baik skit. Salah aku gak sal dok kasi muka sgt kat dia.

Kita mmg kwn. Aku blh terima tu. Mmg dh terima pun. Aku ajak kua nari sal aku nk ajak dia kua jalan2 dgn aku. Kok dia pilih b0la lak.
Karang nga gadoh ah nie. Tgk ah. Dia taknk msg aku pun. Dh biasak pun mcm nie.

Aku nak keja lahk. Mungkin ph agi k0t... Yalah. Nk jadi mcm dulu. Tknk pkr2 sal cowok2. Buat pening sajo ah.

Now, hari makin cpt. Dia pun, dh ku lupakan. Cinta mmg ada tuk setiap kawn2 ku tapi bukn yaya. Haha! Tu pun plastic. Menyampah. Hutang pun tknk byr. Menyesal dok kwn ngn dia. Mak aku pun bising.

Sentence 4 e dae:
Kok kalau ingn carik j0d0h, truz mencari... Jgn putus asa.
Dari wak kelantan!!

2008-09-25T15:41:00.007+08:00

heya...!!
Its been a great week. At bazaar all e wae. Free f0od, drinks... Haha!! =)
Its like evrydae i reach h0me at 1am. Late right...?
Tired2. Now, im sick. Argh! My temp is 38.2. Quite high...
My throat pain n my b0dy weak... =(

Aniwae, its been a week i neva quarell with hym at all. Mayb, i alreadie cn xcpt it or myb, im jus d0in diz 4 hym... Hm...
I oso dnt n0e larh but i only knw dat i miss hym alot...
If we r stil 2gthr, 2mrw goin 2 b our anni. 1yr 1 m0nth... I du ask hym out but dnt n0e yet e answ.
Niwae, later going geylang again. Myb, im cutting ma hair later. Den, buy stuff. Myb, buker with farhan n sis at c0mpass. Hm. B0RING...! How i wish he's mine.

2008-09-22T23:17:00.004+08:00

Todae neva go out... All e way jus stay at home n play psp games. Getting b0red with it actualie but ape nk buat kan. Past 3 days, im all e wae at geylang. Help out at uncle sh0p.hm... 2mrw im going there help out oso. Dgr2 with e 3 a's... My dad 'ahmad said' uncle 'mr ahmad' n me 'aishah'... Cfm dpt bnyk untungkan. Haha!
Nw, aku rindu sgt dgn si dia. Tapi, kita kwn kn. So, sabar je rindu nie. Hahaha!!
Ystrdae kwn aku paitow sehk. Dia janji nk kua ngn aku smlm tapi tak msg2 atau kol p0n. Irritating kan. Aku sabar bnyk2 dok.
Bukan tknk berkwn atau aku tknk org rapat dgn aku... Tapi, aku tk suka org amek kesempatan terhadap kebaikan aku...

Niwae, tadi my wh0le family at h0me but daddy go bank awhile. I b0ught baju kurung black c0l0r at miss saigon. Btl tk speling? Hm. Harga berpatutan. Haha!

Diz yr i h0pe 2 celebrate raya with my switheart fren... Hehe! Datz all 4 nw. Bye2..!

2008-09-21T03:12:00.000+08:00

hey...! I jus reach h0me. Nw ab0ut 2+... Frm geylang jus nw wit family. 2dae buker with hym n den walk2 with hys frênz... Oklah. But actuali3 i got s0me otha plan which i th0ught dat he neva mit hys frens. But nvm, sumtymes n0t evrythng dat we've plan realie we get 2 du it. I neva t0ld hym dat c0z evry0ne wil b sorie. Yeah..!! I du stil lurv hym but i jus dnt get any signal frm hym yet. Hm... I feel dat he d0nt lurve me. Coz its lyke im alwaes lyke b e last prsn 2 n0e... Haix. Nvm, i understand it n0w.

2008-09-20T02:23:00.002+08:00

sumtymes he jus dnt understand h0w i feel. I d0nt thnk dat he even care. He's n0t like e guy i used 2 n0e. He d0nt even care 2 pujuk me or even thnk ab0ut h0w i feel. He cn still play s0ccer even i said dat dis wil b e last dae i msg hym. N he still can say okay! Wtf. Wth... I just dnt n0e watz wr0ng with hym... He got feeling or n0t...? Why guys intend 2 b lyke dis sehk? I hate b0ys n yeah its right dat GUYS DNT HAVE BRAINS!!! N GUYS DNT HAVE HEART!!! Hate dem al0t. Nw, im realie trying to leave hym. How? I dnt n0e t0o. Arggghhh!! Watz wr0ng wit u? Im c0nfused.

2008-09-17T17:10:00.002+08:00

hai! Its been a hard week for me to decide 2 jus let it be this way or forget it and move on. Yesterdae, i call hym over 20 tymes but neva get any responds. Plus even my msges. I dnt n0e wat my fault but i n0e it muz b my fault. I met hym ystrdae n we r totalie jus frenz. I lurve hym but he neva been care ab0ut it at all. My lyfe is full of shit after he left me.
I might b s0o stupid 4 being s0o truly in lurv with hym. But he jus kip ign0ring m3. I thnk there's sum0ne new or myb dia mmg dah malaz nk lyn aku. Aku nekad dgn keputusan aku bahwa aku akn lupakan dia. If he want 2 ign0re me, i cn jus ign0re otha thng... Plus...
The bills.

2008-09-12T13:58:00.002+08:00

Smlam, bagiku sgalenya sudah berakhir... 3ngkau telah ku lepaskan dan tak akan ku ganggu lagi. Cintaku masih untuk mu tapi, rindu ini tak mampu ku tahan lagi. Bukan putus asa tapi inilah untuk mu syg. Aku lepaskan mu bukan kerana aku sudah ada penggantimu tapi kerana aku tak tahan lagi menyeksa jiwaku. Aku tak pernah menyalahkan dirimu tntng perbuatan mu. Tapi bagiku, segalanya tdk adil untuk ku. Mmg bnr kau kata bahwa kita tak sehaluan. Dan mungkin tiada jodoh diantara kita. Aku redha dgn apa yg dah berlaku. Dgn itu...

IM LETTING YOU GO...

2008-09-08T23:07:00.001+08:00

Trying to xcept everything...

Dont nid 2 tell m3 anything...

50-50 we can get bcK 2gether...

Dont have confident in it...

Just lurve eu too muchy...

2008-09-08T23:05:00.001+08:00

Lagu Novela Cinta

http://www.ria.sg/ssi/PROJEK%20RENTAK%2008%20-%20NOVELA%20CINTA.mp3

2008-09-01T19:43:00.001+08:00

One more thing.. I noe dat i neva take my oral but i have my reasons for dat..
Im werking n dats my last dae. 2 get the pay, i have 2 werk just to pay up my bills.
Actuallie, i still du take the oral last saturday at thiong bahru...
Im soory bie.
I still du lurve eu!!!

2008-09-01T18:54:00.001+08:00

THAT RED EYE COZ OF CRYING TOO MUCH..!!

2008-09-01T17:49:00.002+08:00

Everything ends and start soo fast. Am i changing in my behavior..??

Mayb YES... If im n0t, he wont sae dat i changed. n he wont end everything.

Whateva happen rite now, is called "Datz lyfe"...

Not everything we want, we get it. Sumtymes we just put it to fate.

I hate myself ryte now. Mayb yeah its wrong for m3 to keep things from hyM but

I HAVE TOO...!!!

Datz not wat i want but its wat have to happen...

Im leaving moi fri3nds * Palat & yaya *

Wanna n0e why..??

THEY NOT HELPING IN ANYTHING BUT THEY'RE JUST GIVING PROBLEMS...

Wad dat i remember is dat Palat said 2 m3 dat

"Kalao Lan tanye aku ape2. Aku akan cakap dat aku tak tao ape2.."

Wads lan told m3 b4 is dat THEY ARE NOT A GOOD FRIEND..

A GOOD FRIEND WONT BREAK SUMONE ELSE RELATIONSHIP...

Maybe coz of dat, lan dont trust m3 in anything...

Wad 2 du.. I cant du anything but just let it b3..

Haslan du forgiv3 me but he wont take me back 4 sur3...

Its very2 sad for m3..

Mummie keep shouting n telling m3 to forget bout hym n stOp CRYING...

But how shuld i du dat when he's e one i realiie2 lurve..

Dis past 3 days are the m0st sad2 m0ment for m3.

I cried, i cut myself n even hit myyself on the wall.

I cant st0p blaming myself n its realiie2 hurts alot.

But..

I noe dat he's much more hurt then m3.

But..

Im now still angry with myself n keep asking myself..

"Where's the old Aishah..???"

Everyone said i change.

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Actuallie..

I never change at all. Im still the same aishah. But there's sumthing change..

Im not the aishah who ppl use to sae a playgirl..

Im not the aishah who plays with ppl heart...

Im not the aishah who change partner every now n den...

Im not aishah who alwaes dont care bout others..

NOW...

Im aishah who only lurve one person in her life.

Im aishah who willing to change for others.

Im aishah who thinks bout other feelings.

Im aishah who alwaes pity about others.

*Thats wads the different btwn aishah b4 knowing haslan n after knowing haslan*

Yesh!! Alot of things different...

If i can du dis thing, i will reallie2 du it.

Just be with hym n alwaes be wit hym till the rest of my life...

For now, im still waiting for him coz my last promise to hym is dat..

"I will wait for u till the rest of my life n no one can replace eu... You will b the last n alwaes b the one i in lurve with. Even u gone n left m3, my h3art still with u n nuthing can change my feelings..."

Right n0w, My Heart Isz Definitely Cloze To Everyone

Now, I left with jus faMilie n i d0nt nid aniOne elSe in ma life...

HasLan..

How far eu go.. I will alwaes loving eu...

N i will find n look for a prove to prove it to eu dat everythng is tru3..

For now, Can w3 still b3 friends..??

Please, jus a fri3nd by nam3..

Not a friend who haf to mit up....

2008-08-26T13:42:00.004+08:00

My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you, or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over

From LYRICSMODE.COM lyrics archive

2008-08-26T13:37:00.001+08:00

Shul i dye my hair back lyke diz...?? I missed my hair color..

I shouldnt dye black in the first place..

So sad2 sehk...

2008-08-26T13:32:00.003+08:00

From all the pix that i have taken dis few years...
!!!.Dis is the picture is the best pic dat i have taken.!!!
I jus love it soo much.
!!...Datz m3 and teddy...!!

2008-08-26T13:08:00.002+08:00

Tadi pagi2 lagi busu yaya dah kol rumah.

I was like sleeping at dat tyme..

At the same tym3 i had a bad dream...

Very2 bad dream which i haf been dreaming bout it 4 dis 2 weeks...

RELATIONSHIP THING WHICH ENDS WITH ARGUMENT

Aniwae, it was a shocking dae 2dae...

My aunt told m3 dat Cik dollah meninggal dunia just now morning when he's sleeping.

Yeah!! Dier sedare jauh but the saddness will ofcoz b there..

Everything end so fast.

I remember dat the last tyme i saw hym was last year at my aunt house on Hari Raya...

I oso was told by my mum dat he's having some sickness since last year.

Not sure what is it actuallie...

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Aku berharap agar keluarganya tabah mengharungi kesedihan yg melanda mereka ini.

Semoga arwahnya dijauhi api neraka dan ditempatkan bersama orang2 yg beriman.

Amin...

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2008-08-26T13:02:00.003+08:00

Im jus a fool who alwa3s xpress the love 2 sumone who dont xpress anything.

Im jus a fool who alwaes sae i lurve eu n just get a silence n a yes from hym.

Im jus a fool who alwaes think of hym which he neva eva think of m3.

Im jus a fool who alwaes remember everything n he intend to forget a lot of things.

Im jus a fool who alwaes be there for hym but he neva been there for me.

Im jus feeling so fool every now and den wheneva i think of him....

2008-08-26T12:07:00.003+08:00

Happy 1 year Anniversarry Sygku!!!
Hope we will just stay dis wa3 or much m0re betta..
Lurve eu soo much...
I just cant bare 2 lose eu sweetheart...
Hope we will be 2gether foreva n frOm now, i wOnt hurt eu...
Just dont leave m3 again.
Love eu hubby...
MuuuuaaaKkkkxxx....

2008-08-25T19:16:00.002+08:00

Sekiranya anda belum bersedia untuk bermain dgn hati dan perasaan
serta bertemankan rindu dan airmata, jangan sekali-kali mendekati
api cinta. Kerana cinta menuntut kesabaran, ketabahan, kesetiaan,
persefahaman, kasih sayang malah segalanya. Cinta bukan yang indah
semata-mata tanpa rasa keperitan cinta tidak akan
muncul dgn kejayaan.

By: Nina Kirana
Book tittle: Dalamnya Luka Cinta

2008-08-25T19:04:00.002+08:00

Who am i to you..??
I just dont noe or maybe he wont let m3 noe or myb he neva show how he feels 2wards me...
Im CONFUSED of who am i to hym.
One of moi fren told m3 dat he's not being fair n loads mor3.
Im not ok being dis wae but as wat i said earlier, its up to hym.

Du u trust m3...??
In relationshp. u nid 2 hands 2 clap....
Nid 2 haf trust 2wards our partn3r n muz be truthful 2 one another.
Jealous is a main feelings 2wards sumone who we love.
It cant b avoid, even we force it not 2 b3...

2008-08-24T16:52:00.008+08:00

TRIP TO JOHOR BAHRU *23th august 2008*Daddy n Mummi3
Hurbie_Boifi3
*HaslaN* Mummie posing

AT CITY SQUARE (JOHOR BAHRU)

...Line up for food...

Fida, Daddy, Mira, Haslan

2008-08-24T15:21:00.002+08:00

Hello...
Today im not going out at all. Thought of going town or sumwhere but the tiredness still in me. Yesterdae was a very long day for me. Not enough sleep n all the wae dragging my feet to go out. Yeah!! Go jb yesterdae... No differents.. Still e same like in singapore...
All the wae raining n haf trouble walking coz of my slippers...
I buy novels and dats it... More too eating n walking yesterdae. Overall i had a great time spending time with family n my sweetheart.
Right now, im listening to music. Song by Secondhand serenade n waiting for moi switheart msges. No one know bout my latest news coz he toold me to b just quiet.
Hm...
I guess, i will jus follow he's wae. So, he's happie...
Shuld i sae im attached or sgl for now??
Everything looks the same dats y im still confused....

Till here..
Gtg now...
Nothing more 2 sae... :(

2008-08-22T14:38:00.002+08:00

Thanks for everything... Eventhough everything now abit ok.
There's still a feeling of scared now... Dnt noe lah wat.
GUess... we r now not apart anymore but dere's nuthing 2 b happy about...
I dont noe y..
I feel restless n alot of other feelings...
Thanks once again...

2008-08-22T14:28:00.001+08:00

MIMPI ITU PERMAINAN TIDUR..

HARUSKAH AKU MEMPERCAYAINYA..??

2008-08-18T14:47:00.002+08:00

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

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2008-08-18T14:36:00.002+08:00

Everything getting from good too bad n bad too worse..
Life sux evetuallie...
Daddy just came home... Ryte now, im looking 4 job..
Still searching...
Wish me luck aiteS....

P/S: I still lurve u n cant bare to lose eu sweetheart...
Do eu still love m3..??... I mish eu n regret doing diS 2 eu bi3...

2008-08-16T15:22:00.001+08:00

-HURT BY CHRISTINA-
JUST 4 EU.... THE ONE IM IN LURVE WITH....

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

By hurting you

2008-08-16T15:06:00.000+08:00

Imagine all the times I cried
The tears I've shed, every night...

No one would come to comfort me
So I sat alone until I fell asleep...

All I ever did
about the hurt
was smile and lie
While deep inside
I felt the pain
though I tried to hide.

It hurts me to speak this way
It hurts to feel betrayed
It hurts me to see you standing there
Watching me fall again

All I ever did was make those same mistakes
I seeked for mercy but I found more pain instead
Maybe I'm bound to suffer like this all the time
So am I a coward for trying to help myself overcome it all?

Why does it have to be so hard just for me to let it go?
Why do I have to fall so I could keep pushing you?
I'm afraid of what I've done, the pain that I've caused you
And even though I can't promise much, believe me I love you too

I'm sorry for letting go
I blame myself for hurting you
I just couldn't wait to end myself
To take the pain away
But I never meant to hurt you twice
If only there was another way
I'd be the only one hurting instead of you too...

2008-08-16T14:34:00.002+08:00

I have made a decision. N he kinda xcpt it coz he's not against it at all....
He said its up to me. Its my decision...
Ryte now, he told me dat he dont care about m3 anym0r3.... Is it true..?? Lots of argument happen yesterdae night n im soo upsad bout it. I gif hym bck e necklace n otha stuff... Theres onlie spongebob n the clock left with m3... Shuld i gif hym bck dat too...??...
I lurve hym lyKe i always did but y cant he just understand it. y everything muz b3 m3 ending up in wrong??... y sehk??...
I tried to xplain things but he just hack care bout m3... How shuld i no3 whether he still do love m3 or not... Wat he did yesterdae... how he's feelin'??... datz have been the question in my mind... Yesterdae i cried the whole day even im e one making the decision of not contacting again... Why its hard 4 m3 2 let hym go...? If this is just a story, i will just tear it away...
Im feeling soo fuck up ryte now... No responds from hym...

Thanks once again haslan for doing dis... One thing left 2 sae... PUT YOUR EGO AWAE!!! COZU HAVE BEEN ASKING ME TO DO DAT.....

2008-08-13T12:27:00.003+08:00

I guess, we are not meant for each otha. We are 2 different n im sad about it...
Life changing... I thought of looking for a job and juSt get myself busy...
Sometymes i just feel soo bening cheated by the one i lurve...
I guess, im just "Tepuk sebelah tangan"... Yeah!! Lyke Khalid use 2 tell m3 last tim3...
In a relatiOnshp, u nid 2 hands to clap...
Ah2 ehk... Its been lyke 2-3 months khalid neva contact m3...
Now, im not contacting anyon3... Just focussing on hyM...
But he just still want 2 njoy lyfe... He just dont want 2 admit it....
Rite now, im at library... blogging and crying as well...
I dont noe y...
I just feel dat im being cheated n shok sendiri....
Wat muz i do now??....
Everything looking good but im just too scared....
How if he got bike in the future??..
will he still b contacting m3??..
Frens, soccer and familie came first for hyM...
Im just the last on3... Maybe....
I love hym n scared of losing hym...
Ryte now, I will just follow with the flow...
He still dnt no3 my true feelings....
The HURT still in ma heart....

**I hope he understand me well enOugh...**

2008-08-11T12:24:00.003+08:00

Datz my mummi3....

2008-08-06T20:24:00.000+08:00

IM JUST TOO HAPPY... ^_^...!!!!

2008-08-06T20:16:00.002+08:00

Hola!!
I haf a new fren..!! Hys naMe is Nas.
He's 24 stayiNg in jurong... ~Far right??~
havent meet hym b4.
but myB soon...
I completely broke up with Haslan n nOw try gettiNg use 2 it.
I lurve hym but dnt noe y hys like dat.
Right now,
juSt wanT to Make as Many freN...
Hope dat Nas is nice...
ThanKs 2 Palat n yaya 4 beiNg there 4 m3...
N thaNks 2 haslan 4 breakiNg my heart.
Now i caN sae n ProUd 2 sae dat iM SINGLE...
Hahaha!!
ThaNks 2 Nas too 4 giviNg sum advic3.
EveN jusT nOe hyM last 2 days...
On 4th august 2008...
Im soo happi3 now.
n hoopppinggg dat haslan noe it.

2008-08-04T19:52:00.004+08:00

Hey...
Now den i noe dat our NRIC number which start from "S"...
Dats not stand for Singapore....
But... Its stand for "19"... Wanna nOe why??...
Lets count from alphabet den number...
a=1 b=2 c=3 d=4 e=5 f=6 g=7 h=8 i=9 j=10
k=11 l=12 m=13 n=14 o=15 p=16 q=17 r=18
and S=19....
Example: S9009926D...
S=19 which i was born on 1990...
Haha!!
Sounds funny rit3??..
And wat i found out now is dat...
Ppl who born on 2000 and > ....
Their NRIC number start from "T" instead of "S"
which "T" = 20 .....

TRY FIGURING OUT K.....

...........Thanks to Haslan for telliNg me diz..............

2008-08-01T18:15:00.002+08:00

I guess im getting cloze 2 hym bcK again....
He still e same old guy i noe... I met hym on Wednesdae... 30th July 2008....
GUess what??
He's e one asking me out.
Actuallie...
It jus at moi house. And i send hym to chua chu kang...
AM i sweet??... Hahaha... guess soo...
Ryte now, i decide 2 quit my ite and just concentrate on moi OLEVEL....
Told mumi juz now she okae with everything...
I guess..
I will jus tell dat FCUK teacher n just leave the sckool as soon as possible...
Have to plan sumthing new later...
hmmm... now my hubby at home..
got MC and now oready at home liao...
Dont noe whether 2mrw can mit up or not.
but i think dat we cant coz he's sick...
nvm2....
cant wait to quit ite..
FREEDOM waiting...

2008-07-25T13:15:00.001+08:00

ORANG BERCINTA... AKU PUN NAK BERCINTA...
BILA DAH TERLUKA... AKU YANG MERANA...!!!
ARGHH!!!
DAMN IT MY LIFE...
MY LIFE SUX...
MY RELATIONSHIP ALL FAILED...
IM USELESS!!!!!

2008-07-25T13:13:00.001+08:00

HASLAN!!! I MISH EUU LAH SEHK....!!!!

2008-07-25T12:39:00.003+08:00

**~This soNg meant for the One i reallie lurve... N dat would be Muhd HaslaN~**

LEONA LEWIS [I WILL BE...]

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause you're here with me

And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever

To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Cause without you I cant sleep
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want
Yeah

And without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need

And I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

And all my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

2008-07-25T11:47:00.002+08:00

Do love nid sacrifises??...
If the answer goinG to be YES....
Wad sacrifise it going to be???...
I dOnt nOe wat my liFe gOing to be....
I dont noe wad 2mrow gonna b... N even later...
I thiNk... i think ALOTS!!!!
My future... My life... Like career, studies, education n mOst of all LOVE...

How shuld i tell sumone dat i reallie lurve dat person??...
Muz i make e first move??... yeah!! i mean to confess the "Love" feelings...
Hmmm....
Life isz too hard to understand...
ACTUALIIEE....
The most difficult to understand would be ppl feeling...
I try to understand how ppl feel 2wards me n everything....
But i cant...
Coz diz ppl just keep everything by themself...

to be continued......

2008-07-22T14:29:00.002+08:00

!!!I'VE MADE THE WRONG DECISION!!!

Yesterdae, i have made a very2 wrong decision.

I hurt hym soo much...

We still do lurve each other but there sumthinng we need to settle.

Right now...

He keeping quiet but just now he do msg me...

Just telling me dat he at CCK polyclinic...

I reallie dont noe wat i shuld do n wat shuld i sae.

I told hym dat im going off for hym.

I hate seeiing hym getting stress up n confuse.

Coz dats wat he keep complaining to me.

I jus want hym to get sum space to think n settle things out...

but he understood iti differently.

He thought im leaving hym.

Actualie...

I jus want us to seperate for awhile..

So, he wont be thinking bout me all the time.

I dont noe who to talk to now...

Yesterdae i mit yaya n palat at compass..

We just like hangout n sitting around.

About 9pm den i went home take LRT...

He neva msg me at all yesterdae night.

I kept calling hym to xplain things.

But he ignore me totally...

I slept with tears rolling down my face...

Its too sad...

Just dont noe how shuld i xcept it with an open heart.

I jus cant.

I promise hym b4 dat i wont leave hym.

My love towards hym will neva fade awae.

A PROMISE WILL ALWAES BE A PROMISE....

2008-07-18T11:03:00.002+08:00

Skrg aku kat skola... Rase restless...
Semua kekwn ku buat keje sendiri...
Apa yg cikgu ckp.. semua tidak pedulikan...
Mendak giler sehk nari...
N dont noe nak uat pe...
Hmmm...
Kalao aku lehk alek skrg kan best eh.
Leh tido atao tgK dvd.
Tak sabar nak alek sehk.
Mak aku ada pract nari.
so, aku sorang2 kat umah...
Besh!!!
Lembab dok cikgu nie...
Got to do my werk now...
Kalao tak, takleh alek...
hmmm

2008-07-18T09:54:00.002+08:00

Kangen banget sihk sama dia...
Bagaimana dong harus gue halang perasaan ini??...
Semenjak kebelakangan ini, dier seperti tidak bisa menghubungi ku...
Ape sih dia inginkan??...

2008-07-17T13:31:00.001+08:00

I hurt you, something I'll always regret.

I'll miss you forever and always love you.
I'll never lie to you, never could, never did.
I can never forgive myself of what I've done.
Why must I be so stupid and out of my mind?Couldn't I have thought before I acted?
I messed up everything and it'll never be the same.
I was so lucky to have somone as great as you.
I want you back, back in my life.
I can't let you though, after what I've done.
What if I were to mess up again?
I could never risk hurting you again.
You're too good to me, too good for me.
When I come running back, don't let me in.
Make me realize I've been a terrible person.
I broke my promise, I ruined what we had.
All I want you to know is that I love you.
Every word I ever told you was the truth.
There is no one I could ever love more than you.
Cause Gavin, you'll always be my hun.

2008-07-17T13:06:00.002+08:00

All this time it's haf been a bad time for me...
Sumone realie2 hurt me...
"SHE" thinK negatively bout me... =[ ....
Dis is how the story goes...
Dont really noe how to start the story but i will try...

I alwaes... as in not alwaes... I mean, sometimes do meet up my girlfriend the boifriend....
I know hym for bout a year. and i noe her about 5 years....
Rite now, im still waitiNg for the one i lurve... *HASLAN*
N dey noe dat...
But everything starts from "CEMBURU BUTA"...
She thinks dat im snatching her bf awae after i brOke up with my guy n he went to NS...
Actuallie...
She was soooo wrOng...!!!!

Right now, everything goes so wrong.
N i dont now what i shuld du.
My ex bf knows bout it when i told hym yesterdae but he kinda missed judge it...
N rite now, everything became soo worse den i eva imagine...

I wish dat i can just talk to her n Xplain everything...
I dOnt thnK dat he wiLL koL me..
I woNt du dat sehk...
If she du read up my bloG...
JUs wanna tell her dat "IM SORRY!!!"

2008-07-16T15:31:00.000+08:00

Isn't thiS picture CUTE ??!!??

2008-07-16T14:50:00.005+08:00

MEANINGFUL PICTURES

This is what normally ppl going thru in life.
There's lots of story hidden in this picture...

2008-07-16T14:18:00.001+08:00

The latest Picture of myself.
Taken in the toilet in school...
Hehe!!

2008-07-16T14:05:00.002+08:00

Diz piCture waS taKen aT Tanjung Katong Complex... At Paya Lebar...
I jus dont understaNd how diz ppL can gather outside here...
Plus they briNg their own food and sOme otha stuff...
Normallie dis ppl are frOm indonesia and philliphines...

2008-07-15T12:02:00.003+08:00

What is Foie Gras??

Foie gras (pronounced 'fwah grah') has been exalted in some gourmet food circles as a prized delicacy, but if most people knew how foie gras is produced, they would be horrified.

Foie gras, the French term for "fatty liver," is the product of extreme animal cruelty. It is the swollen, diseased liver of ducks and geese who are force-fed just up until the point of death before being slaughtered. Birds suffer tremendously, both during and after the force-feeding process, as their physical condition rapidly deteriorates. In just a few weeks, their livers swell up to ten times their normal size, and the birds can scarcely stand, walk, or even breathe. At this point, they are slaughtered, and their livers are peddled as a "gourmet" delicacy.

The idea for this cruel force-feeding practice is thought to have originated in ancient Egypt, after people noticed that wild geese often gorge themselves before embarking on long migrations. Because Egyptians, and later Romans, considered the fat-laden flesh and organs of those geese caught after this pre-migration gorging to taste better, they sought to artificially induce and exaggerate this condition in captive geese. Thereafter, the practice of force-feeding took hold, later degenerating and devolving into what is now the modern foie gras industry.

**Would eu still eat it after watching the video??**

2008-07-15T11:58:00.000+08:00

I am not perfect, but that's no an excuse
So here's sorry to everyone I hurt
I did stupid shit in the days

I can admit my mistakes today
Time to be man for once
The blame is on me

Hope you can forgive me
Even though it's late
Maybe even too late

I won't mention names
This is just late night repents
To sleep at night without crying faces

The blame is on me.

2008-07-15T11:31:00.004+08:00

*Lagu ini Khas untuk mantan pacarku. Agar dia tahu prasaan ku yg sebenarnya...*

KANGEN BAND *DOY*

Sejenak ku terdiam dan membisu
Membuatku lelah dan tanpa arah
Coba mengertilah coba pahamilah
Arti cinta sesungguhnya

Dan letakkan hatimu disini
Ku berjanji kau tak 'kan kusakiti
Sejuk sepi sedang nampak hanya bintang
Hanya kaulah yang ku sayang

Ku latih kau terbang diatas awan
Agar kau tegar dan tak terkalahkan
Jadilah jagoan seperti yang ku inginkan
Agar dapat ku banggakan
Namun sikapmu kini telah berubah
Membuatku resah dan serba salah
Kau berdiam diri membuat nadiku berhenti
Katakanlah hei kekasih

Reff:

Coba kau pikirkan, coba kau renungkan
Apa yang kau inginkan telah aku lakukan
Coba kau pikirkan coba kau renungkan
Tanya bintang-bintang hanya kaulah yang ku sayang
Coba kau katakan apa yang kau inginkan
Apa yang kau butuhkan telah aku berikan
Coba kau katakan apa yang kau inginkan

Back to Reff:2x

2008-07-15T11:17:00.001+08:00

CUBA KAU FIKIRKAN
CUBA KAU RENUNGKAN
APA YANG KAU BUTUKAN
TELAH KU BERIKAN...

CUBA KAU KATAKAN
APA YANG KAU INGINKAN
APA YANG KAU BUTUKAN
TELAH KU BERIKAN...

2008-07-11T20:44:00.000+08:00

I miss how we used to talk to hours,
I miss how you used to come up behind me,
And poke me in the side or hug me,
I miss how you used to make me smile all the time,
I miss you,
We used to talk all the time,
Now we barely say two words to each other,
You used to randomly poke or hug me,
Now you don’t even come near me,
You used to make me smile,
But lately,
You’re the one that’s been making me cry,
I miss how it used to be,
We weren’t a couple,
We were just friends,
And I miss that,
I want to be your friend again…

2008-07-11T20:37:00.005+08:00

I sit here at home
Wondering how things are going
Wondering how you are doing
Wishing I could be there by your side

For you see...

I miss your voice
Which soothed me when I was scared
And shushed the rising of tears
When you told me you had to go

I miss your touch
Which held me tight through the night
Promising that you would never let go
When it was the last night before you went

I miss your eyes
Which held love only for me
Yet filled with unshed tears themselves
When you told me you loved me

I miss your ears
Which listened to every word I spoke
Held it dear like it was told by God
When we spoke for hours before you had to go

I miss your kisses
Which were gentle across my skin
Sweet as heaven itself
When you kissed me goodbye

Most of all...

I miss you
You're all I ever wanted
All I ever needed
When will you come home?

I worry about you
When you're so far away
Yet I also know in my heart of hearts
You miss me too.

Do me a favor my love
When you send letters from wherever you are
Tell me you love me and that your coming home soon
Because that gives me hope that soon I will hold you again.

2008-07-11T20:37:00.003+08:00

2008-07-11T20:37:00.001+08:00

2008-07-11T20:33:00.000+08:00

2008-07-11T20:19:00.000+08:00

while having my breakfast, I suddently realized that something terribly important is missing...

My life is one part of a whole, yours - other one...

I miss you...

Aku dilukai berkali2. Ngak tau bagaimana nak ku harungi nya. Hidup ini penuh dgn cabaran. Tapi, aku cuba melalui sgalanya dgn penuh kesabaran. Tiada sesiapa yang memahami hidup aku mahupun diriku sendiri. Aku tak tahu bagaimana lagi harus ku buat untuk membahagiakan diriku yg sepi ini. Tiada teman atau apa2 pun. Senang kata, hidup ini sunyi.

Sukar untuk ku bercinta lagi. Aku dah berjanji dgn diri aku sendiri bahawa aku tidak akan menerima sesiapa lagi dlm hidupku. Hati ni telah terkunci untuk mane2 lelaki kecuali dia.

Aku tak tahu kenapa aku terlalu menyayangi nye. Walaupun dia bukan yg pertama... tapi dier yg terakhir.

Ramai org kata aku bodoh.. BODOH kerana menunggu seseorg yg tak tau lagi sama ada dier akan menerima aku semula ataupun tidak..

Tapi JANJI TETAP JANJI.. Aku tidak akan mungkir janji yg tlh ku buat untuk diriku dan dirinya.

Walaupun dia mendesak aku untuk berhenti berjanji dgn nya.. aku tidak akn lakukan.

Aku ingin dia tahu bahawa aku bnr2 menyintai dirinya.

Tidak tahu apa lagi yg harus ku lakukan untuk mendapatkan dirinya semula kecuali MENUNGGU...

Aku mendambarkannya...

Aku rindu belaiannya...aku rindu kasih yg tlh dier berikan untuk ku.

Aku rindu suaranya.

Aku rindu sgala2nya tentang dier...

Adakah dia tahu bahwa aku rindu padanya??

2008-07-11T19:52:00.000+08:00

Take it from me.

Nothing is what it seems.
Nobody says what they mean, anymore.
They left me here to bleed.
Lying here alone.

Everyone just kills your vibe.
All of it's so frustrating inside, of me.
Why can't live be better? Better.
Why can't we just live harmless together?

So we will take it back to the start
With everybody's beating heart.
Lifeless dreams. Unable to sleep.
Left here to bleed.
Lying here alone.

2008-07-11T10:35:00.000+08:00

Kdg2... rase sakit hati tu mmg ler... tak pernah aku dpt mengelakkannya...
Sygku terhadap dier mmg terlalu mendalam...
Aku berikan segalanya yg dia mahu.
Tapi...
Kini hati ini telah dilukai.
Aku bynk bersabar dgn keadaan yg berlaku kepada ku.
Aku hanya bersabar...

Im now suffering lyke hell..
Help me to cure...
HELP!!!

2008-07-11T10:14:00.000+08:00

Is it nice?? Haha!! This pic was takeN last year on my dinner and dance with pizza hut gangs... Hehe!! First tym i make up dis thick... hahakz...

2008-07-11T09:11:00.000+08:00

Smlam aku lepak ngan palat... Biasa ahk... Kat serangoon MRT. Dlm kul 8.30, yaya pon turun coz dier nak pi outram, nk pi hospital jumpe mak dier...
Her mum going thru some operation...
Sedih kan.. hmm..
Aniwae, smlm aku dpt bual ngn haslan kejap kat hp.
den, telepon nye pon mati... batt flat.
nw he cant on hp..
mcm ne ehk nak contact die.
bukannya die bwk venier caliper...
kalao bwk pon ok pe..
aku pakai hp yaya sal batt aku pon dah naek merah...
dier mcm tao aje aku suka warna merah...
hahaha...
hmm...
aku smpai umah dlm kul 11mlm...
mak aku tak bising ahk...
hehe
skrg..
aku kat skola.
blaja si java bodoh nie.
sikit nye memenengkan...
bodoh nye subject...
biler haslan nak kol aku ehk.
rindu banget dong...
kangen...

2008-07-11T08:45:00.000+08:00

MEMORIES

2008-07-09T18:29:00.000+08:00

hmm...
dah 2 hari lan masuk ns...
rindu sehk..
knape lahk dier kene masuk ns part aku maseh mendambarkan dirinye....
knape sehk??
hmmm..
aku kini ttp truz ikot dgn kata2nye..
mmg tak leh terima yg dia tglkan aku..
as wat he told me earlier..
he's not leaving me seterusnya tapi hanya untuk sementara.
mungkin aku harus tunggu dia..
walaubagaimanapun,
aku dah janji dgn dia yg aku akan tunggu dirinya...
walau untuk bertahun tahun lamanye...
mmg sukar untuk aku hidup dlm dunia skrg...
wat shuld i du... cant du anything....
hmmm...

2008-07-08T09:55:00.000+08:00

!!!!_AKU AISHAH_!!!!

2008-07-08T08:21:00.000+08:00

8 July 2008
Hari nie dier dah jadi NS MEN.... 10 hari aku tak dpt jumpe dier sehk....
Mayb Next week oN saturdae aru aku leh umpe dier....
Not sure yet ahK....
Hmm... aku riNdu sehk ngn dier...
yesterdae we get tO spend abit of our tyM 2gether...
hmmm...
Now, aku kat skOla...
Mendak sehk....
Aku dah larh tak suker cikgu2 nye...
Now klaS VJP...
Subject nye ok tapi cikgu nye kentaL habez...
Mendak dok.
Menyesal sehk masuk skola...
Diz tyme kompem aku pi klass hari2...
No ponteNg2.. Not good eu noe...
hmm....
klah...
update nx tyme..
Mish eu hurbbiee bOify.. HaslaN...
Muaccckkxxx2.....

2008-07-02T20:08:00.000+08:00

Smlm aku klua dgn Haslan pergi j8...
Den, nizam n gerl dia pun ada...
Not to forget si Wan n Kevin...
Makan kat caner n borak2 ajek...
Kita jalan kul 10.30 gitu...
I take cab home...
Hmmm...
Aku happie gak ahk dpt umpe haslan...
2dae aku sorang2 kat library....
hmmm..
tak tao nak uat pe tapi just wasting time ajek.
takde arah tuju ahk...
Aku stress sal skola....
Lan nx wk dah masuk ns....
Aku dah lah sorang2 kat luar...
Now nk carik keje...
Untuk isi mase2 aku yg sunyi sepi nie...
Aku dah naek mendak ngn skola aku...
Nx week dah bukak skola...
MALAS NYE AKU.....
Aku mcm nak berhenti aje tapi aku rase beta aku genapkan setahun den aru aku quit...
Harap2 aku pass exAm olevel aku...
So, boleh chow dari tu skola....
hmmm...
Rase2nya nx yr aku taknak skola agi...
Malash beb..
Bdk2 skola aku mendak giler....
Nnty biler dah bukak skola... aku tak nak ponteng2 agi...
dah serik kene kejar ngn cikgu aku...
hmmm...
attendance aku pun aku tak tau ok atau tak ok...
suker hati dier lahk...
kalau dia nak buang aku pun lagi bgz kan...
tak yah susah2 nk pi skola tu agi.,..
penat beb...

2008-07-02T19:25:00.000+08:00

Aku dah naek malas nak ke skola..Lagi2 skola ite aku.. hmmm....
AKu tak tau mcm mane nak ckp dgn mama agi...
Aku btul2 tak nak blaja agi.
Aku tak suker skola aku n aku tak suker bdk2 kelas aku...
Aku sorang..
AKu tak tau nak ke mana....
Aku taknak skola lagi....

2008-07-02T19:02:00.000+08:00

KENALI DIA

1. Tarikh Lahir pada 1, 9 & 24
Pada umumnya pasangan ini bersifat pendiam & konservatif. Namun dengan orang-orang tertentu dia cepat mesra. Tapi pasangan yang lahir tarikh ini mudah terperasan. Kerana sifatnya itu menyebabkan ramai orang yang tidak menyukainya. Namun begitu dia tetap dikagumi kerana bersikap serius terutamanya yang berhubung dengan orang ramai. Dalam hal percintaan, dia sanggup berhabis semata-mata untuk memenuhi segala keinginan pasangannya. Tapi hati-hati kadangkala dia lebih mementingkan persahabatan daripada percintaan dan lebih rela memutuskan cintanya demi sebuah persahabatan yang telah terjalin lama.

2. Tarikh Lahir pada 2, 11 & 30
Orangnya perasa dan mudah tersinggung. Sifatnya yang suka menyendiri membuatkan dia lebih suka tinggal di rumah. Ramai orang suka bergaul denganya kerana perwatakannya yang lembut & ramah. Dia paling benci jika cintanya ditolak atau dikhianati olih orang yang benar-benar dicintainya. Namun begitu dia selalu bersikap sabar dan tidak terburu- buru dalam bertindak. Sayangnya untuk urusan masa depan dia bersikap pesimis sering mengalah sebelum mencuba.Oleh itu mesti ada yang mendorongnya agar tidak terus terjebak dengan sikap pesimisnya.

3. Tarikh Lahir pada 3, 18 & 29
Sabar serta pandai menguasai diri adalah ciri yang khas bagi pasangan yang lahir pada tarikh ini. Tapi jangan cuba mempermain-mainkannya, dia akan mengamuk dengan hebat. Dia tergolong pasangan yang bijaksana dan bertanggungjawab. Sifat jujur & ramah adalah modal utamanya dalam bergaul. Tapi dalam soal cinta dia merupakan pasangan yang susah untuk di mengertikan.

4. Tarikh Lahir pada 4, & 13
Pasangan yang lahir pada tarikh ini adalah seorang yang pandai, suka bergaul dan mudah berubah pendapat. Dia seringkali tidak yakin dengan diri sendiri.Dalam soal cinta, dia tergolong pasangan yang mata keranjang dan suka bertukar-tukar partner. Sifat ini membuatkan orang tidak suka apa lagi untuk bersimpati dengannya. Dia sering bersifat dingin kepada orang lain kerana menganggap orang lain merupakan faktor penyebab timbulnya masalah. Tapi dia memiliki sifat kelakar, mudah ketawa dan kadangkala bersikap keanak-anakkan.

5. Tarikh Lahir pada 5 & 17
Yang lahir pada tarikh ini adalah seorang yang optimis, bercita-cita tinggi dan punya kecederungan untuk berprestasi. Namun begitu dia adalah seorang yang berwatak keras dan apa yang diinginkan selalunya dipenuhi.Memandangkan sesuatu selalunya dari segi yang menguntungkan.Tapi sayangnya dia suka menganggap remeh pada orang lain.Dalam soal cinta, berhati-hatilah kerana dia suka bertukar-tukar pasangan.

6.Tarikh Lahir pada 6, 14 & 27
Dia adalah seorang pasangan yang tidak mahu kalah dan pantang menyerah. Kejujuran dan keadilan merupakan sifat yang membuatkan dia disegani.Dalam soal cinta dia ingin memberi yang terbaik kepada orang yang dicintainya.Namun begitu harga dirinya terlalu tinggi sehingga dia tidak pernah mengerti mengapa seseorang itu menolak kebaikannya.

7. Tarikh Lahir pada 7, 28 & 31
Dia adalah seorang yang bersifat terbuka berterus terang & jujur.Namun dia mudah sekali terpengaruh dan ingin mencapai sesuatu itu dengan cara mudah. Cinta baginya sering diertikan sebagai pengisi masa lapang. Semasa bercinta dia sangat berhati-hati dan suka sekali merayu dan kalau pasangannya curang dia dengan mudah meninggalkannya.

8. Tarikh Lahir pada 8 & 23
Dia bersifat peramah dan mudah perasa. Kepada teman-teman dia bersifat lembut & bijaksana. Namun begitu dia tersisih dari teman- teman kerana rasa rendah diri yang terlalu menebal. Dia memerlukan suasana yang seimbang baik sewaktu berfikir mahupun dalam kehidupan seharian.Kelemahan yang paling menonjol ialah gugup dan selalu dihantui perasaan khuatir tetapi dia adalah seorang yang penjimat. Dalam urusan cinta, dia seorang yang tabah dan rela berkorban.

9. Tarikh Lahir pada 10, 16 & 21
Suka bekerja keras,memiliki nafsu yang tinggi dalam usaha mencapai cita-citanya.Dalam pergaulan sehari-hari dia merupakan orang yang mudah tersinggung.Namun begitu dia seorang yang jujur & tabah dalam menghadapi persoalan.Soal cinta dia sangat setia dan sebab itulah dia mudah disenangi. Tapi dia seorang yang terlalu cemburu. Kalau baik dia sangat baik dan kalau jahat dia merupakan orang yang paling jahat.

10. Tarikh Lahir pada 12 & 19
Orang yang lahir pada tarikh ini memiliki sifat suka dipuji.Dia berharap setiap orang akan menganggapnya sebagai juara. Pada dasarnya dia suka berdandan dan berpakaian rapi.Kerana itu dia sering membelanjakan wangnya untuk menunjukan penampilannya.Dalam kehidupan sehari-hari dia adalah pasangan yang disegani kerana bakat kepimpinannya.Sifatnya yang bijaksana membuatkan dia disegani dalam pergaulan.Dalam urusan cinta, dia adalah pasangan yang sangat susah untuk dipercayai.

11. Tarikh Lahir pada 15, 20 & 26
Jangan mengharapkan sifat romantis dari pasangan yang lahir pada tarikh ini.Dia tergolong dalam orang yang kurang serius, bersikap bodoh dalam menghadapi sesuatu. Namun begitu dia selalu bersikap penuh pengertian bila menghadapi sesuatu masalah. Dia sangat benci pada perkara-perkara yang berbau keributan terutama yang menimbulkan huru-hara. Dalam hal percintaan dia menuntut untuk lebih diberi perhatian tapi dia jarang mengambil berat pada pasangannya. Namun begitu sikapnya disenangi oleh kawan-kawan.

INI AKU

12. Tarikh Lahir pada 22 & 25
Wataknya paling susah untuk dimengertikan. Kadangkala dia disukai kerana kebaikannya dan kadangkala dia dibenci kerana perbuatannya.Namun buat teman-teman dia merupakan orang penuh pengertian. Dalam pelbagai situasi dia lebih suka merendahkan diri jarang sekali mahu menonjolkan kelebihannya pada orang lain. Pasangan jenis ini terkenal sebagai perayu dan sebab itulah dia diberi jolokan seniman asmara.

2008-06-27T19:47:00.000+08:00

"MENCINTAIMU TAK MENGENAL WAKTU...
TAK MENGENAL PUITIS HANYA TULUSNYA HATI...
MENCINTAIMU TAK MENGENAL RAGU...
KEYAKINAN HATIKU HANYA UNTUK DIRIMU SELALU..."

2008-06-27T19:43:00.000+08:00

2008-06-27T19:29:00.000+08:00

-JAWAPAN RINDU DARI HAFIZ HAMIDUN- SONG LYRICS -

Terasa sesuatu
Persoalan memanggil
Di benak yg paling mendalam
sehingga menjadi ralit
Semakin jiwa dilanda
Gelora Sang Penanti
Semakin sukar difahami
Puncanya gelisah ku ini

Hanya kekosongan
Jua kehilangan
kurasai
Menghuni hati

Di mana kan ku temui
Penghujungnya resah ini
Seumpama ku menanti sejawapan Rindu
Di mana kan ku temui
Oh sinaran yg hakiki
Untuk menjadi penyuluh
Jalan didepanku
Hingga akhir waktu

Andainya kau temui
Cahaya yang ku cari
Sudikah dikongsi bersama
Sebagai teman mahupun sebagai kekasih

merenung bayangan jauh
Menatap pengertian
Menyelam dasar persoalan

2008-06-27T19:21:00.000+08:00

Leavin' Lyrics by Jesse Mccartney

Mmmm

Hey baby girl I've been watching you all day
Man, that thing you got behind you is amazin
You make me want to take you out and let it rain, let it rain, let it rain, let it rain.
I know you got a man but this is what you should say

[Chorus]
Why don't you tell him that I'm leaving Never to come back again
You've found somebody who does it better than he can
No more making you cry
No more gray skies
Girl we flyin' on the G5, G5
And we're leaving never looking back again So call your shorty and tell him you found a new man
The one that's so, so fly
The one to keep you high
Yeah we'll be singing all night Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh Man she's gonna be singing
Oh oh oh ohh oh oh ohh oh oh ohhh

Now if I talk it girl you know I'm gonna walk it out
Man I put my money, money where my mouth is You're the baddest little thing that I ever seen, ever seen, ever seen
So I'm gonna ask you one time if you've got a man

[Chorus]
Why don't you tell him that I'm leaving Never to come back again
You've found somebody who does it better than he can
No more making you cry
No more gray skies
Girl we flyin' on the G5, G5
And we're leaving never looking back again So call your shorty and tell him you found a new man
The one that's so, so fly
The one to keep you high
Yeah we'll be singing all night Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh Man she's gonna be singing
Oh oh oh ohh oh oh ohh oh oh ohhh

[Bridge]
Don't stress Don't Stress Don't stress Just turn him to the left left left
Don't stress Don't Stress Don't stress Cause we gone and we gone and we gone
No stress No stress No stress
Girl you deserve nothing but the best
No stress No stress No stress

[Chorus]

Girl, you need to tell him that I'm leaving never to come back again
You've found somebody who does it better than he can
No more making you cry
No more gray skies
Girl we flyin' on the G5, G5
And we're leaving never looking back again So call your shorty and tell him you found a new man
The one that's so, so fly
The one to keep you high
Yeah we'll be singing all night Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh Man she's gonna be singing
Oh oh oh ohh oh oh ohh oh oh ohhh
I've been singing all night, night, night, night
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh man she's gonna be singing
She gonna be singing
Oh She gonna be singing
She gonna be singing
Oh we gonna be singing

2008-06-26T19:19:00.001+08:00

HALU...
DUA HARI YANG LALU...
AKU TON KAT PASIR RIS BEACH..
IT WAS ON 24TH JUNE 2008.. (WEDNESDAE)
WITH YAYA, PALAT N HASLAN...
EVERYTHINGS GREAT...
BUT LOADS OF THINGS HAPPEN AT NIGHT...
HMMM...
ACTUALLIE...
DATS E GREATEST THING EVA...
COZ FIRST TYME I STAY OUT WITH MY FRIENDS... (CLOSE FRIENDS)
HMMM...
MY RELATIONSHP WITH HYM GOING WELL BUT OF COZ...
NOT LIKE WE USED TO BE...
WE STILL DU LORVE EACH OTHA..
I CAN C DAT...
ONLI DERES SUMTHING STOPPING HYM...
*I THINK*
HMMM...
YESTERDAE I BOUGHT HYM A SHIRT...
AT F.FOX...
AT J8...
I MET HYM UNDER HIS BLK AT NIGHT AFTER HIS WERK...
EVERYTHING GOES WELL..
N TODAE ... 26 JUNE 2008...
SHOULD BE OUR 10 MONTH ANNIVERSARY...
BUT...
WE R NOT TOGETHER...
BUT...
I STILL WISH HYM DAT...
NOE WHY??
COZ I DU LURVE HYM.
AKU MASEH ANGGAP DIA SBGAI MY GUY...
HOPE EVERYTHING GOING TO B OK SOONN....
U NOE WAT??
HE ASKED ME OUT ON NEXT THURSDAY...
HAHA!!!
IM SO HAPPY... VERY HAPPY..
CANT WAIT FOR TAT MOMENT...
HEHEHEHE!!!
MUACKXXX... MUACKXXX....

2008-06-26T19:13:00.000+08:00

-BURONAN CINTA-

Banyak sudah yang menegur
Nanti aku kan tersungkur
Dengan gaya ku menggoda
Setiap perempuan di mata

Tapi dunia cukup besar
Untuk simpan rahasia
Sudah terjerat baru terasa bagai
Oh..

(Chorus)
Oh buronan cinta
Terjepit di antara
Dua pacar berbeda
Pada waktu yang sama

Yang kiri belum tutur
Kanan juga begitu
Lebih baik ku lari
Cari pacar yang baru

Aduh.. aku buronan cinta
Aduh.. aduh..

Puas si cari gadis sempurna
Tapi belum ku jumpa
Semua punya kekurangan
Jadi kutambah pilihan

Bagaimana mereka tahu
Semua rahasiaku
Demi kebebasan biarlah bergelar
Oh…

(repeat Chorus)

Aduh.. aku buronan cinta
Aduh.. aduh..
Ku buronan cinta

Sampai kapan ku begini
Ku sendiri pun tak pasti
Mungkin ku begini sampai ke tua

Oh.. oh oh oh oh.. aku..

(repeat Chorus)

2008-06-21T14:35:00.000+08:00

hmmm....
life full of responsibility....
now...
momma noes everything bout me...
hmmm....
how should i avoid it??

Memories

2008-06-21T13:23:00.000+08:00

I just missed the moments dat we spent together in the past....

MIsh eu hubby...

2008-06-21T12:26:00.001+08:00

haha!!

Im feeling soo damn bored at home...

Trying to study right now actuallie but i cant...

Just haf sum argument with momma...

hmmm....

I dont think i got a chance to get married...

"Tak sempat"

My life isz short... Maybe about 3 to 4 years time...

2008-06-20T20:16:00.000+08:00

Halu!!
Just now i watched "You dont mess with the Zohan"...
Its entertaining actuallie... Haha!!
Jus dont understand diz sentence...'I think i love u' ... dats in the movie...
hmmmm...
I watched with my friend "HASLAN" at Bishan (Junction 8)
Today my plan goes smoothly...
But now, im a bit bored...
All alone in the library typing n updating diz stupid thing...
But what to do...
Datz my life...
I got fuck up with looking for job.
I just need a parttime job..
Just to waste my time n earn some income...
But no job needs me..
Haixxxx...........
Im useless...
Olevel coming...
School reopening...
n im here slacking...
Can anyone help me to buck up??...
Im lyke a stupid fool with no life...
Haiyo...
I just dont noe what going to happen in e future??
(If i got future)...
Friends running away..
No boyfriends...
Even close friends...
Everyones leaving me slowly day by day...
Im just a lonely freak rite here in the library smilling to everyone...
Anywae..
Im getting bored with smoking......
It makes my throat pain...

Want tO kNoW wHat iM tHiNkiNg??

Im now feeling so worried bout hym...
He got an accident laST 2 DAYS while working...
n by looking at hym i noe he's sick...
I just dont noe wat to sae to hym..
He will NEVER listens to me at all...
Yeah!! Yeah!! Im nuthing to hym anymore...
But dats not what i WANT... Datz what he wants...
Cant he just like think about me for a secs??
hmmm...
No use talking actuallie.
He will neva think of me...

2008-06-20T20:06:00.001+08:00

Silent words across a screen.
How could they mean so much to me.
I promised myself I would not cry.
Then a silent tear falls from my eye.

What did I do, what did I say,
To make you change your mind, the day you went away.
Everyday, waiting for a sign
To let me know, you might still want to be minE.

And other day comes and goes,
I want to write, but I can't, I know.
You said you needed me more than I needed you,
Why would you say that, if you knew it wasn't true?

Why did you say you loved me?
Then turn around and set me free?
I love you and want you,
But I know I can't make you love me.

2008-06-20T19:57:00.000+08:00

I love the way you make me laugh
I love the way you make me cry
Tears of joy stream from my eyes
As I hear your voice, a loving surprise.
I love you when you're angry
I love you when you're sad
I love you when you're glad
When you tell me of the day you had
I love you truly
I love you deeply
Ever since the day I let you meet me
I missed you when you left
I miss you now more than ever
Making a mistake that I regret
Hoping that you are a forgiver
Without you, my life is strife
But now I ask for a second chance
Be with me and start a life
Together forever, an eternal dance
I wait for you as the days go by
My love is growing inch by inch
I cannot wait to see you again
But I wait for you, and your warm kiss
I love you

2008-06-18T20:37:00.000+08:00

I don't know how my life going thru ryte now...
I dont noe whether im attached or not...
Im confused in diz relationship...
Sumtyme it goes well n not...
I want to ask hym wats wrong with us but im jus to scared...
I dont want anything bad to happen in diz relationship...
I still need hym n want hym but i dont noe how he feels..
He kept everything as a secret...

Yesterdae i do go out with hym..
Just hangout at Yaya's place...
With palat too..
Everything goes well but we all a bit tired...

I went home a bit late... Take cab home...
I just love hym too much...
But he like ignoring me when i said dat...
How shuld i sae it again when he just keep quiet??
How sehk??
"I LOVE U"... how sehk??

I jus want to express everything out but dont noe how..
Yaya n palat keep giving me advice n not to gif up...
I reallie want hym back...
I want the old HASLAN...
He's soo different....
Im going totally crazy...
I dont need anione else...

Now, my mum...
I dont noe how to tell her dat im serious in hym...
he xpext me to talk n mix with all the guy around me..
"setia pada satu"..
wats dat means if she want me to be dat wae..
Khalid keep calling me n i du tried to ignore hym....
but how shuld i tell hym??..
he so irritating...
ALip...
He's my friend...
I dont reallie lyke 2 contact with hym...
he keep asking me out but one thing for sure...
I wont go out with hym...
He so irritating...
keep askin me to forget my guy...
I just sae dis to hym...
" U think u soo cool... u think u soo good... u think u soo handsome....
but not for me.... SO WAT GITU LORH"...
No one can replace my boify...
Wateva happens i love haslan very2 much....
Till my last breath....

***HASLAN.... PlS DU UNDERSTAND... I JUST NEED EU!!! HOW SHULD I PROVE IT TO U?? I JUS TOO IN LURP WITH U... DONT LEAVE ME PLS....***

2008-06-18T20:26:00.000+08:00

Kesunyian begitu mengagumkan.
Kadangkala ia dapat membawa kenangan manis lalu menenangkan hati yang gundah...
AH!! Adakah sesiapa di luar sana tahu betapa hati seorang gadis ini merintih kesakitan??
Bahawa gadis ini sering terluka dalam cinta..?
Bahawa gadis ini terlalu rindukan seorang insan yang bernama lelaki...
Itulah aku dan selamanya aku akan jadi begitu - orang yang kecewa dan tidak pernah merasai walau secebis bahagia...
Kenapa manusia sering merana kerana cinta??...
Kenapa ia adalah satu kepahitan dan kenapa wanita sering terpedaya dlm percintaan oleh lelaki??
Adakah ia terlalu ego atau terlalu jujur??...

2008-06-18T20:15:00.000+08:00

Demi tuhan...
Aku cuma mahu mendapatkan kembali cintaku yang telah lama hilang.
Aku cuma mahu melihat sayangku walau buat kali terakhir.
Aku tidak mahu apa2 lagi kecuali hakikat bahawa kasih kita akan bertaut kembali.
Jangan tinggalkan aku dalam rindu yang tidak bertepian ini.
Benarkan aku hilang di dalam keabadian cintamu dan restu yang membahagiakan kita selamanya.
Jika kau pergi, maka aku tidak akan dapat bernafas di dalam dunia yang KEJAM ini.
Aku tidak akan mampu mengharungi hari demi hari yang menyakitkan ini.
Hanya cintamu yang menjadikan aku tegar.
Hanya engkau yang membuatkan mentariku berputardi atas paksinya....

evrything ends...

2008-06-16T19:58:00.000+08:00

Yesterday my life ends...

No more love in my life..

He left me bcoz of sacrifise...

I dont noe how to xcpt it but i haf too...

I just want hyM.. I need hyM... i still lurve hyM...

but everything end...

No more lurve in hym...

He ditch me...

I dont noe what i shuld du...

but iM runninG awae..

i dont noe where to go but i still need to run...

i juz to in lurve with hym...

He make me love hym n now he make me forget hym...

NO ONE UNDERSTAND ME!!!!

I just hate myself soo much...

I dont noe who to talk too..

everyone's gone...

Im juz begging for happiness ryte now...

dats e only thing to do...

iM useless...

im Heartbroken...

***ENDING OF LOVE LIFE***

!!!GOODBYE LOVE.... WELCOME HURT!!!

Halu...

2008-06-12T19:37:00.000+08:00

My lyfe iSz gettiNg better lately... but not so "GREAT" .... EvrythiNg gOing to be ok for now but not sure bout later... But hope everythiNg goinG to be alrite...

JuSt miss everythiNg... I get my hubby n friends bacK n moi familie too...

Lurve dem soo very much...

N now im just too tired to thiNk about anythink...

Life isz complicated actuallie...

but i will surely make it as easy as possible...

Niwae, my mum bought me a mp4... dats e most suprise thing ever in my life...

Haha!! Just love it.... :)

2008-06-05T13:27:00.000+08:00

I juz lurve hyM too much...
I dont nOe wat i shuld du..
Is it my fault??
I dOnt Noe...
Im Scared if he realie leaving me..
Im too scared...
how shuld i contact hyM..
He switch of his hp..
Im lost..
Im useless...
Im goiNg crazy...
I just need hiM rite now..
Please dOnt go...
Please dOnt leave me..
Eu promise me dat u wont leave me..
Eu said u wont ignore me..
but u did...
u running away from me..
i dont noe wat to do..
how do u xpect me to be??
wat shuld i do now??
I dont mean 2 hurt u...
Sorry!!!
Please dont go away...
Please....

2008-06-05T13:24:00.000+08:00

Once someone is in your heart,
You never will forget,
All of the memories,
But somethings you'll regret,

True love is what you make it,
But love isn't always true,
Even when you love someone,
It doesn't mean that they love you,

Hold on to your friendships,
Be proud of who you are,
Forgive, but don't forget,
Expand your horizons beyond too far

2008-04-20T18:28:00.000+08:00

MODEL OF THE YEAR!!!!
MUHD HASLAN

Comment: Suit to be a model....

But have to put in more effort... :)

2008-04-20T18:04:00.000+08:00

My One and Only hurBy!!!

Are we cUte??!!?? Hehehe!!!

LuRp mOi bOify sOoo Muchy...

SeriOus taLkiNg ehK...

I caNt realiie wait tO be wit hYm...

Hehe!!!

I nOe dats weird..

But..

Dats sooo thru....

DIz tyMe...

Im realie2 iN lurve with HaslaN..!!

Mish eu HaslaN!!!!

2008-04-20T17:58:00.000+08:00

Isn't dat baby soo cute??
Saw her at the MRT statiOn yesterdae nyte...
Hehe!!!

2008-04-17T15:10:00.000+08:00

Now...
Im dOing loads of stuff... I mean my daily life....
SchooL iN ITE MacphersoN n My Private O-Level...
N now, i feel lyKe jOiniNg Floorball...
hMmM...
I juSt dOnt Noe hOw i waNt tO coPe in diZ wae of schedue...
My schedue iSz very tiGht N iM feeliNg a bit work up...

NIwae,
My first day of ite macpherson in cool.
Kinda scared iN e first place but eNd up everythIng ok.
I got loads of new fwens such as:
HasaNah...
Fateha...
Aisyah...
Ana Umairah...
ShiMa...
Melisa...
N loads more...
There's loads of fun when im with deM...
N we du share loads of thIngs 2gether...
HmmMMm...
I realie dis moment wil stay e saMe 4 diZ 2 yearS...
hehehe!!!!

Niwae,
NOw i jus miSS my Boify sooo muchhh....
Hehhe!!!

Gtg Now...
Buhbye!!!

2008-02-08T22:34:00.000+08:00

For real after all i done and learned from e past relationships , i learned to weave out e 'bad guys'
but i think dis time i have found da person i always dreamed of meeting..
i have never loved anybody e way i love him and he feels da same.. when im havin a bad day he makes me laugh and i forget all about it.. i wasnt lookin for e perfect person cuz i know i would be easily bored once i found him..but i have been lookin for somebody who makes me happy and dont try n put me down just so they can shine..e last relationship i thought dats wat i was gettin then outta no where he just dropped me like i was nothin then started puttin me down.. i told myself it would b a while til i moved on 4 real and i started not 2 believe in marriage anymore then i met my new boyfriend and i looked back and realized e signs was right in my face e last time and he is so much different from anybody i ever met..we got so much in common .. he always got a way of keepin me from being stressed and somehow we always know wat each other is thinkin. He's basically like my other half..dont get it fucked up or nothin, my baby aint soft..he just know how to treat his girl and he dont change personalities when he around his boys either..but i am so thankful dat i decided 2 talk to him cuz at first i was tryin 2 brush him off a lil bit cuz at da time i was still thinkin 2 myself how much i hate e wae guys act but somethin deep down told me 2 give it another try..n im so glad dat i did cuz now im plannin on spendin da rest of my life wit somebody i love so much who love me just e same. I feel so blessed and i thank God dat i have him in my life cuz he means everything 2 me and he knows anything he need from me.

2007-12-16T19:03:00.000+08:00

"I MISS DAT THING"BUT I HAVE TO FORGET ABOUT IT